Sleep-deprived philosophy that seems right regardless

[hearthstone]

I wrote this earlier today in a moment between sleeps (I'm down with a head cold so sleeping in bits) and wanted to remember it:

"No one knows my heart, I am alone." That, I think, is what draws many people to religion--that they cannot bear the essential self-hood of existence. There are times I understand that, although on the whole I am at peace with being on my own in this life. But I do want to be understood and I do want to be valued for who I really am. There isn't too much bitterness because neither of those things are really possible outside the vacuum of the ideal. But I do need to refine myself, to define myself. I need for me to seek what is true in and about myself, and although you can't really live in that state I do acknowledge the journey.

Comments

[tehomet]

No disrespect intended, but you're a married woman with children, aren't you? I thought it was only spinsters like myself who felt that way sometimes.

I hope your cold eases soon.